| HOLYOKE SEMINARY, Oct. 14th, 1856.
My own John, --This afternoon, when thinking of the letter I was to write to you, I felt as if I must commence it by exclaiming,- How great are my blessings! God has given me to call my own while we stay in this [with?] you whom I love with all my heart. I may think of you, pray for you, may write you - may love you - Oh what rich blessings are mine! Thy hand made the house of our pilgrimage so beautiful that I often that I often ask myself, what then will be the mansions Christ has gone to prepare for us above! Is it not refreshing to think of the one we love? It is rest when I am weary and it is blessedness continually. I thank you a thousand times for those [precious?] lines that this evening gave me a most delightful surprise. I wish I could kiss you and tell you with my lips that I love you more everyday of my life. You cannot be indulging more joyful anticipations of the future than is your Louisa. It will not be very long if God prospers us, ere we shall together enter upon our life's work. Will it not be a happy day when I may bear your name! I pray that we may not live too much in ourselves. We have a cup almost full of blessings now and the one we hope to raise to our lips in a few months seems full and running over. Oh how much grace, how much strength shall we need to bear it steadily and all the while keep our eyes fixed on the Giver.
I am enjoying myself very much. I do feel that it will be a very profitable year to me. I remain as well as when I left home. Can study hard and it is a real pleasure to me. Today I recited the Calvinistic creed. I am glad I am storing my mind with such knowledge. If I can ever employ it in doing good, my present joy will be increased ten fold.
Last Saturday I wrote a composition spending only the required time, four hours, on it; you shall read it sometime if you wish. I love to write, but I long to feel the burnings of inspiration. I know I ought rather to be content with what I am. I have attended a meeting this eve. in the Sem. Hall. The school was last week divided into two classes, those who have a hope that they are Christians and those who have no hope. Our first meeting was held this evening. Miss Jessup urged upon us the duty of self examination, and of a consistent life. It was a most solemn time when the division was made. Those who had made a public profession of religion were first requested to rise, then those who had some hope that they were Christians. Their names were taken the rest retained their seats; the room was perfectly still-many wept; & I am sure many hearts were swelled with emotion. Our religious privileges are great. I hope I shall grow in grace. But though we are perpetually surrounded by religious influences, it is for me a great thing to keep my heart right. It is not so easy here as at home, to watch & fight and pray. Other duties are ever pressing upon us, and the temptation to neglect the heart is almost irresistible. I shall be glad when one week more is at an end--three weeks will then be ended--three weeks of promise--of separation, how long they seem! Shall I see you, clasp the hand and kiss the lips so dear to me, next week Wed.? If the weather permits, will I see you the following Saturday?
I must thank you again for your letters. The ambrotype you have had taken for me I long to have by my side more than you imagine. Shall you bring it with you when you come? Lu is well and sends love. I must kiss you. Good night.
Your Own Loving Louisa